Late

I'm late to work today because...

I had to vacuum. I just couldn't leave the house with the floor such a mess.  My tolerance for a messy house is pretty high. I tend to be ok until my feet start sticking to the floor. At that point I look around what has become basically a feat house and just flip out. 

That happened today. It had to be done. I didn't do a great job but it is a little better than it was. 

Findin time to clean is one of the most difficult things about being a mom who works full time outside the home. 

Almost 3 months

It's been almost 3 months since I blogged. 

What does that tell you?

Sometimes to manage life as a working mom you have to cut out everything and simplify. The holidays always requires that I step back and only do what is necessary. The months that follow are for me to refocus and redirect my time. 

The blog has taken a really far back seat...actually it's riding on the roof right now hanging on for dear life. 

I do have some things to share that I hope to get posted soon. 

Until then. Simplify. 

It's Hard

There are days when maintaining life as a working mom is much harder than it should be. Life is that way though...some days and times in our life are just more difficult than others.

Today was one of those hard days. 

On hard days I find myself thinking about how much easier life might be if I had the luxury of staying home. 

Today would have looked much different. 

Instead of taking my lunch hour to go watch a music program at the school, I could have leisurely enjoyed the program and brought my girls home from school immediately after. 

Instead of rushing around at 5pm to get one child picked up from daycare and another child picked up from chorus I could have spent time with the kids at home doing homework before nonchalantly taking my oldest to choir. 

Instead of inhaling chicken nuggets in between choir and the evening fundraiser for the school we could have had a well prepared meal an hour earlier and made it with plenty of time to spare to the benefit. 

Instead of being up at 10:30 at night signing failed spelling &science tests and overseeing reading journals and math homework, we could be snuggled up on the couch reading a book for fun with the kids. 

I often times, especially lately, feel I have and am failing my girls. My oldest who is in 5th grade is struggling. Just about every test she has brought home this six weeks has been below a 70.  I'm frustrated. I'm tired. I don't know what else to do.  

Today sucked.